Sunday, March 1, 2009

Elephants, Education, and Emotion.

I went on a mid-morning hike up Spencer's Butte yesterday. The light was amazing-- slightly misty and diffused. I spotted this elephant tree in the distance. I love how nature creates faces and shapes in the trees. 

Yes! I don't even know why we need to have bumper stickers stating the obvious. This is something that hits home for me right now as I am delving into the world of higher education. I'm finding that if I don't get loans-- I don't go to school. Alternately, If I don't go to school--I will not have a steady job that allows me to pay my bills and have a little breathing room. This terrifies me. I am keeping pretty calm about the whole ordeal--this is a big improvement for me. I tend to worry and stress until I am a frazzled, exhausted mess. Lately, I just take everything day by day. I am trying my best to see the future out of the corner of my eye and focus on the present moment. This is a daily struggle--often I screw it up. But these days I am gentle with myself--making mistakes can bring about change if I am conscious and aware.

Usually I am not a fan of  tree graffiti. Trees are beautiful and artistic in their own way and don't need further decoration. This one grabbed me for some reason--perhaps it appeals to my inner romantic. It does remind me that I would really love a kind soul to share my adventures with. Someone to cook dinner, dance in the kitchen, and explore with--simple things, really. This is an area in which I am cultivating patience. Patience is another quality that does not come naturally to me. A friend told me the other day that as soon as you stop looking for something(one), it finds you. This is likely very true. Ok...patient...I am very patient. 

1 comment:

  1. Ok, this is not supposed to be funny, but reading "I went for a hike up Spencer's Butte" made me giggle. A lot.

    Yes! Live in the present and try not to worry so much! This is something I need to do more of as well.